This is for everyone on Tumblr.
His videos make me happy C:
Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month, May 2012
very moving <3
oh wow. :)
Despite the odds, I am alive.
- My dad tried to suffocate my mom before I was born. Logically, she never should have had a baby.
- When I was little (three), I had a deadly disease called Kawasaki disease. It usually presents with a flaming temperature, and when it goes down, most people think the virus/infection is gone. I was lucky, because my mom was a nurse, and she wasn’t buying that I was a-ok. If it weren’t for her intuition, I’d be dead.
- All the things that naturally occur in this world. The car accidents, the theme park rides sometimes (rarely, but it happens.) malfunctioning.
- I live on a hundred miles or so from tornado alley.
- My mom and her mom had breast cancer. My chances of getting it are high.
- I wanted to die all of 7th and most of 8th grade. Even with someone by my side, it was hard to be happy.
Who am I to take my life? I am alive, despite the odds. I am alive, despite my desire not to be, at times. I will keep living. I will survive.
findingtherabbitholetowonderland:
607 playsHold On | Good Charlotte
I forgot how much this song used to mean to me. <3.
This song, I don’t even.
This song saved me from suicide. I have a whole blog page dedicated to “music that helps.” but this song is my world. I cannot count how many people I’ve told to listen to this song. I cannot count how many nights I spent with this song on repeat, how many times I can a blade to my skin, and dropped it, for this song. You will never understand how happy this song makes me feels. The tears that it brings to my eyes. I got through desires for an OD of Xanax chased with alcohol because of this song. The music video for this makes me cry every time. All the parents, friends, siblings, suicide survivors, talking about living, regrets, pain, missing..it’s amazing, it’s moving, it grounded me. This song held me to the world. This song is beautiful. This song rescued me from being a 13 year old suicide. I want to go to a GC concert and have Benji and/or Joel write “Hold on, if you feel like letting go.” on my arm so that I can get it tattooed. This is the song I listened to every time my heart broke. This song will always be my saving grace. Good Charlotte was there for me when no one else was. Good Charlotte played a huge part in saving my life.
